It’s time for me to get a bigger cup…
So what do I mean by that? You know, I’m so blessed, and I have such an amazing life–“my cup runneth o’er.”
I’ve worked really hard over the last few years to really expand my capacity to hold those blessings by really stepping up to become more of who I am. Sometimes it feels like I’m holding a cup to receive all of the amazingness life has to offer, and lately that cup feels like it’s too small to hold it all. I often feel like I could be my own fountain, connected to the Source and able to be a conduit of a continuous flow; connected to my own power that enables me to be the light, the change in the world that I want to see. My life has been an incredible journey so far. I’ve loved every bit of it. I love every single day of my life–I always have– I’m so grateful that I am now living it more than just watching it. I’ve talked about that a lot. I know that life isn’t meant to be a destination where you arrive and stop. It’s always in progression. So in the midst of this time of “my cup runneth o’er,” I’ve always known that I would have a moment when it would be time again to push, time to expand…
Because I love to speak in metaphors, I have a few analogies to share:
First, whenever I’m at a place where I am feeling “stuck,” –like there’s more I’m meant to do and I’m doing everything that I know and I’m still not able to really move forward or to receive all that is available to receive –what I’ve learned to realize is that it’s because I need to get a bigger cup. My current cup is completely full. My current level of growth is no longer enough if I really want to progress in this life and continue to move closer toward who I am meant to be. It’s time to stretch my capacity to handle the next wave of opportunities that are waiting for me.
To me, that means it’s time for me to get really intentional again–time to pay attention to the places where I hold myself back and figure out what I need to do to push past the limitation. It’s time to do the work. It’s an exciting feeling for me because I recognize what it means and I know what comes after it, and at the same time it’s really hard. It’s scary. It’s emotional, right? If you’ve ever felt that feeling, you know what I’m talking about.
It’s interesting to me how my body goes through my emotional journey with me (and here’s my second analogy.) It’s something I never really believed before, but it’s been so apparent to me lately that I can no longer deny it. For example, I’ve had this “bum” knee since I injured it about ten years ago. I’ve really been working hard lately to move past the injury and get it recuperated and rehabilitated in the right way so it can continue to function for me and to do all the things I want to do in my life. I’m not ready to be done being active when I am just now starting to enjoy it.
I went to a brilliant new chiropractor, and he, together with my trainer who is also brilliant, decided that the nerves in my knee and the muscles around my knee are not communicating with the rest of the muscles. “Your muscles are strong,” he told me, ” and the skeletal structure is strong. It’s just that the communication between your nerves, muscles, and structure is not happening.”
He proceeded to tell me that what we need to work it in a certain way to break it down and then push it hard to build it back up. As excited as I am to have it be repaired and to heal properly, it scares me, because you know, hard things are hard! It’s the same thing that’s going on with me emotionally. Like I said in the beginning, there are different areas in my life where I’ve been feeling stuck. In order to allow myself to do those things, I need to break down my neural comfort zone even more than I have been doing. While the comfort zone steps that I’ve taken over the past few years have been awesome, they’ve been more external. So now I’ve gotten to the center of the tootsie pop, per se. I’ve got these old neural pathways in the center of everything that are fighting the change. They’re fighting against the idea of breaking down that comfort zone because they are used to functioning in a certain way. I’m used to being comfortable in certain situations and in certain feelings. I have developed habits that are holding me back from what I want. So, like I’m doing with the muscles and nerves of my knee, it’s time for me to break down those neural networks and to do things that are hard, to break down and to push hard to the next level.
So you see, It’s time for me to get a bigger cup, so I can hold more of the life I am meant to live.
To hold myself accountable to my new intention, I’ve decided to do another 100 day challenge–#100DaysofIntentionalHealth. This will include creating habits around nutrition, fitness, rest, emotional health, self-care, and “balance.,” and anything else my body tells me it needs to be healthy.
Would you like to join me? Click here to be added to the FaceBook support group.
Why do I do 100 days?
100 days works really well for me because:
- In the first 30 days I’m creating a new habit.
- The next 60 days, I solidify that habit so it becomes a part of who I am instead of something that I’ll give up on when life gets in the way.
- The next 10 days are an added bonus–the cherry on top.